...confusion....

Life is so confusing right now....

My biological brother to the right [-->]
wants me to come to South Korea and teach English there. I think that he has in his head that I will move to South Korea permanently. I don't think that he understands what my family here in the U.S. means to me.

Yes, my birth mother might be my "mother", but she's not my "mom." My mom is here in the U.S. She was the one who held me when I needed someone the most.

I love my birth family, but I don't think I could,
or ever will live in South Korea.... Yes, I would
LOVE to visit them for a couple weeks, but I
don't think I will ever live there.

So as an ending, please just pray for me. I'm
confused, and worried about how my brother
will take the news.

Love,
me

Sorry I haven't written here lately.

My depression is back, and that's not too exciting to write about.

Happy Father's Day!!

Happy Father's Day.

I realize that it says Monday June 22, 2009, but this posting is only 10 mins past Sunday June 21, 2009.... Father's Day.

I spent the day w. my dad. We went for dinner. We played Banana Grams. It was fun. I took a nap.... ended up being woken up by a friend who invited me to go to Tunnel Park w. him and his daughter. Fun times. :) I didn't have a swimsuit w. me. He laid on top of me w. his soaking wet body... It was COLD!!!

It was a good day though. :)

Love,
Me

Hello

Hi!!
Hope everyone has been doing well. I've been busy working... a lot!! I've got 40 hrs this week, which is nice... Lots of 3rd shifts too... which isn't so bad.... I found out from a co-workers who only works third shift that during the week, you get an $1 per hour, and $2 on the weekend... So that's super cool... Anyway have a great night!!

Love,
Me

3rd Shift the next 3 nights...

I am working 3rd shift at the hospital the next 3 nights..... *sigh*
Oh well, it's not so bad once you get used it. It's just trying to get
used to the goofy hours that you're awake and you're used to
sleeping during those hours.

One of my guy friends continues to pester me about dating him.
The answer is still the same. I like him as a friend, but nothing
more than that. He just doesn't seem to understand that....
*sigh*

This week looks like it's going to be nice weather wise. I'm going
to start running again....

My friend who will be in the Army Reserves when he comes home
in August [he graduates in 71 days], is planning on making me do an
APFT [Army Physical Fitness Test]... ha ha ha... Good luck w/ that one.
Supposedly I have to do 18 push-ups, 18 sit-ups, and run 2 miles in under
18 minutes... Lol... Should be an interesting time.

Anyway have a great week!!
Love,
Me

Third shift...here we come!!

Tonight I start 3rd shift at the hospital.... 6:30pm to 2:30am... I have a feeling I'm going to pass out while dishing up pudding... lol.. j/k. I train on it tonight, and then tomorrow night, I'm all by myself... I should be okay; I hope.

Anyway wish me good luck!
Love,
Me

Super tired!!

I am super tired. I worked today from 6:30am to 2:30pm.... AND I only slept for 4 hrs last night. :( I went to bed around 12:30ish, and just could not fall back to sleep. Oh well, work went well, even if it was kinda busy.

I work tomorrow, and I picked up a shift for Saturday night. Then Saturday night I will be heading down to Holland, and Sunday morning.... Pastor Jim Boer is back from his 4-month sabbatical!! :-)

Anyway have a great night!
Love,
Me